The Price of Punishment

I want to write to you
tell you how I feel
but I'm afraid
the words will make it real

I think you will get angry
and then things will get worse
but the silence is deafening
in my private curse

If we are really quiet
and we all pretend
the anger won't go away
the broken hearts won't mend

I am sorry to have hurt you
I am sorry you are down
I'm sorry I can't be more
I'm sorry I make you frown

My heart aches for you
more than my fractures ever did
I ache for what I can't have
I ache for what I did

I'll pay the price of punishment
til I can't pay any more
I ask for your forgiveness
If it is something you can afford
12-01-08 BjM