Changes

When you have a friend
A friend whose far from near
A friend you keep in your heart
A friend that you hold dear

A place where one can safely
Say all the words out loud
Tis the path of our journey
A badge I wear quite proud

A rambled on sentence
To you makes so much sense
And you don't even charge me
A penny nor a pence.

For you are mine buddy
My P, my long lost pal
I met you in the green room
Where we raised some hell

Twenty years come and gone
Kids have now both grown
No more bath and bed times
No more teenage hormones

As the clock ticks forward
New challenges emerge
Kids are both out working
It makes emotions surge

When the dust settles
Life will level out
With out a question
There was never a doubt

With all of the worry
And planning their fun
Your care and attention
Is what makes ya a Great Mum

XxX BjM 2-20-16

Loving an Addict

Everybody sees the Addiction
We watch the addict slowly die
The pattern of behavior
You see it in their eyes

What starts out as a party
Always ends in the same way
The addict keeps on going
Without any friends to play.

Eventually they’ll notice
That they are now alone
All their friends have been replaced
By people without homes

Addiction will take everything
Because they place it first
If they could love more than the drug
We could all avoid this curse.

Never give them money
Always stand your ground
Listen to them carefully
Sometimes it’s only sound

They need to ask the question
There comes a time to choose
Do you want to live this life
Sneaking off to use?

It’s best they lose your number
Enabling them isn’t wise
You’re the brunt of all their anger
You get to witness their demise.

They don’t want to hurt you
They just want their fix.
The poison of their choosing
The cycle makes me sick

We go to their funeral
Gloss over all the crud
But secretly remember
They gave their life for a drug.
BjM 12-8-15

Seventy Four

There was a beginning,
Or more of a start
The memories flood forward
Our ways will soon part

A reason for leaving
A reason to go
A quest for my freedom
With baggage in tow

Think of the firsts
Mask over the lasts
Our time in the valley
Yea we had a blast

The time that I lent you
Oh it broke my heart
To come home and find you
Crumpled needing new parts

When we rebuilt you
The truth was revealed
A moment in time
Secrets concealed

Lives became altered
Friendships were strained
After the dust settled
You and I remained

We spun some tires
And ran from the cops
But there’s nothing like being
Airborne waiting to drop

Cruising the avenue
Foot to the floor,
Looking for trouble
Knowing the score

Kids in fast cars
Limits abound
Can you imagine?
The things that they found

The memories are plenty
The scars slowly fade
But there isn’t a moment
Of this time I would Trade.

This time shaped my future
As I carved out my past
Learning life lessons
Cruising round, driving fast.
BjM 12-8-15

Step Off

The anxiety is real

You feel it under the skin

There’s no way to stop it

There’s no way to keep it in

Step back, this is your warning

Don’t call me on the phone

For I feel somewhat toxic

I need to be alone

Frustration turns to Anger

Anger turns to Rage

Without the proper outlet

Without the proper cage

The bucket has run over

The contents on the floor

Not sure if I can fix it

Or want to anymore

Others can’t carry on

What your father didn’t fix

Place blame where you like

Leave me out of the mix

BjM 2-18-16