If fate offered you a wonderful alternative ... would you notice

If fate offered you a wonderful alternative ... would you notice

Sexy in a hat at -20 C

Chasing

How do you spend your life?
Chasing the next high
You know it won’t be found
That well has run dry

Need and desperation
Are the voids you fill?
Self medicating
Crushing your will

Be it on substance or lights
Or things that go whirr
Part of the need that you crave
Is the upset you stir?

Crisis abound
Abundant and clear
All this commotion
To mask off your fear

The lesson you find
May not be what you seek
You can’t be too choosy
When your future looks bleak

The life that you waste
May it be only your own?
But we all know
You’ll wreck many a home

So chase all your highs
Throw your dreams in a ditch
For life’s what you make it
And that is a bitch.
BjM 3-5-09

Throwin Stones

When I was young
not yet on my own
I used to spend time
on shore throwing stones

Searching the edge
For stones that were flat
Smooth to the touch
Fit precise in your hand

I’d gather a bunch
Then find a good place
And I’d throw and I’d throw
Til sweat drip off my face

Counting each skip
Trying for more
Working the angle
Raising the score

Weekends were the best
Spent down by the river
Swimming all day
Til I had blue lips and a shiver

Found me a place
Twas safe from harm
A place for just me
A place that was warm

Sitting on the bridge
Short climb to the top
Although it’s illegal
It’s hidden from the cops

Now I’m not young
But I’m long on my own
I sure miss my time
On shore throwing stones
BjM 2-20-09

The Price of Punishment

I want to write to you
tell you how I feel
but I'm afraid
the words will make it real

I think you will get angry
and then things will get worse
but the silence is deafening
in my private curse

If we are really quiet
and we all pretend
the anger won't go away
the broken hearts won't mend

I am sorry to have hurt you
I am sorry you are down
I'm sorry I can't be more
I'm sorry I make you frown

My heart aches for you
more than my fractures ever did
I ache for what I can't have
I ache for what I did

I'll pay the price of punishment
til I can't pay any more
I ask for your forgiveness
If it is something you can afford
12-01-08 BjM

Ode to the one I love

You make me Sweat,
You make me grin.
You fill my mind,
With thoughts of Sin!

You make my neck hairs,
Stand upright.
You whet my,
Carnal appetite.

You make me breathe
Erratically,
You make my innards
fill with glee


You make me feel
Complete and whole,
You make my Hormones
Lose control.
BjM 8-5-5

Too Fore

Love is - the look on my face
When our eyes first met
Love is - keeping your things
Taking your puppy as a pet

Love is - eating fungus spores
& coming to see the new place
Love is - counting stars
& a big fall losing you the race

Love is - kissing on the tour
But we didn’t know that yet
Love is - alcohol and wine skins
& acts we’ll never forget

Love is - when you hold me
Arms wrapped around me tight
Love is - when you scold me
Or we have a fight

Love is - when you touch me
Just to show you care
Love is - when I think of you
Just knowing that your there
BjM 7-6-08

What about me

Do something nice for others
The kindness will be returned
That is a far cry from truth
As I have finally learned

The more you give the more they take
until less of you remains
a never ending cycle
and I cant stop the train

It’s not a call for pity
Just a cold hard fact
For sometimes in life
We get exactly what we ask

Be a lil demanding
Ask for all you wish
Before you grow old an lonely
As it hurts to feel like this
BjM 7-21-8

Yankee Stadium

There was a girl whose name was Bo
Off to the Stadium she did go
Plane, trains and automobiles
Skipping work, missing meals
Travel cross country 2400 miles
Creating memories, making smiles
On the subway to Times Square
The smell of urine filled the air
Trash stacked up in the street
Vendors selling mystery meat
Souvenirs too many to buy
Cops have stations in the sky
A New York cabbie got her lost
You would not believe the cost
Now she’s home safe and sound
Forever changed, forever bound!
BjM 9-21-08

Most of us have foollish ideas about who we are and many many rigid rules about how life ought to be lived

Most of us have foollish ideas about who we are and many many rigid rules about how life ought to be lived

Me I just hate FORKING Rules

Candle wish

Let’s dish
Birthday wish
Moon lit
Throbbing bits
Vampire kissed
Morning bliss
Weakened knees
Begging please
After dark
al e’ carte
Afterglow
Late night show
Breaking dawn
Race is on
Rising sun
Almost done
Just right
Out of sight
Never part
Melted hearts
Broken thumb
More to come
BjM 11-30-08

The Demons

The demons will consume you
if they're left un-fed

Starving them won't kill them
they'll suck the brain outa your head

They make you act all crazy
and treat the others unkind

Some say demons don't exist
that they're only in your mind

My mind's the biggest problem
it takes over when I sleep

I try to shut it off
but the pain just runs too deep

Make friends with your demons
it's the only way

Then if you get lonely
you'll have a friend to play
BjM 11-7-08

Alone

Alone,
Empty inside.
Scared,
Along for the ride.
Sad,
Like something had died.
Hurt,
In pain she cried.
Alone,
Empty inside.
BjM 11-6-8

Lessons

The Little Block

All the blocks were gathered
And put into a row
All the things that mattered
Were stuffed inside to grow

The lil block couldn’t carry
As much as all the rest
The stuff was way too heavy
To drag on through the quest

The lil block grew weary
And dropped things on the way
What was kept and what was dropped
Was not for them to say

The lil block hung on to
The things that mattered most
All the others watched
Unaware of the haunting ghosts

They saw what they wanted
And ignored the rest
The lil block struggled
But put forth its very best

As the years rolled on
The blocks stayed in their row
The lil block just stood there
But it was all for show

Then one day it happened
The lil block stepped out
All the others panicked
So they created doubt

The block was not what mattered
It was the secrets that it held
The fear of the exposure
Is what the others felt

The lil block stood there
With the secrets bare
They pretended not to notice
But said go fix your hair

A new generation
Of blocks put into a row
Can we truly love them?
Or is it done for show?
BjM 5-28-8

April 10, 2008

April 10th @ 8 am
April 10th @ 8:30am


April 10th @ 10:30am


April 11th @ 2pm

Snowday

Marble Canyon

Up in Marble Canyon,
near the Great divide.
The fire ate the forest,
consumed all her insides.

Stripped her of her nutrients,
for the wildlife she sustains.
Nothing to eat, no where to hide,
Somehow her beauty remains.

A rebirth will happen,
in many years to come.
Can she fully recover,
from what man has done.
BjM 3-21-8

Game of life

Life is not a game of Risk -
where you try to achieve
World dominance ...

It is not a game of Sorry -
where you jump all over each other
on purpose and pretend to be sorry ...

Or a game of Chess -
where you out strategize one
and other to defeat their queen ...

Or is it ...

BjM 01-02-08

One Mistake

Lying in the gutter
of my once proud life
In a matter of a moments
it passed before my eyes

One mistake they told me
would not end your world
where was all their wisdom
as my life unfurled

Was there someone watching
with laughter in their eyes
did an audience gather
witnessing my demise

Mistakes create opportunities
for our souls to grow
learning as we wander
down the path unknown
BjM 1-5-08